So here we are, a brand new year, fresh new start....well, so much for that. I didn't even make it an hour in the new year without cutting, how pathetic is that? I know this isn't the SI board, so I won't go into it. Anyway, I'm just sick of everything, as usual. I hate myself, I hate the way I am, and the longer that I am like this, the further down I go. I don't know what to do. I know that you all want to help me, but it isn't helping anymore. I don't know if I should just leave or what...I mean this is so awful, I can't take it....I can't stand life anymore. I know, no suicidal posts...this isn't one...just a I'm tired and can't deal anymore post. I guess what I'm trying to say, is I may or may not be back, I just dont know. It all seems so damn pointless anymore, and I can't handle it.

[b]<font color=blue>"On the plus side you killed the bench, which was starting to look shifty."-Oz of Buffy the Vampire Slayer[b]<font color=blue>