Aaagh, ((((Dreamer))))... darn it, I wish things would start looking up for you.

I remember that hopeless, 'what's the point' feeling, but, thankfully, because of a good antidepressant primaily, (called 'celexa'),

I don't feel that badly now. I'm also exercising a lot which is really helping.

The cutting is a coping mechanism, right, so there is no inherent 'shame' in it = somehow, one needs to find a different way to gain relief from overwhelming emotions or empiness, etc., but I think that alternative 'way' is different for each person.

Is there even one thing that you feel good about yourself, (even sometimes), for? When I started being able to leave the house to go to the gym, it helped me to gain confidence, (over my panic attacks and resultant agoraphobia), to begin doing other things.

I hope you'll keep posting, if you are getting anything out of it at all, because I know that you are developing friendships here = people who care, (like me ). Warmest regards, Peanut

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