Demo, I'm so sorry you're having such a bad time of it. It's pure hell, I know. BUT...!!

If your boyfriend had hit you and had expected YOU to be responsible for his moods, you wouldn't have accepted that, now would you? Best thing for you to do, like I have done in the past, is take care of YOU. Do what you need to do for YOU to achieve your desires, like being independent. That will never happen as long as someone is pushing you to do it. Your T and us here can support you, but the real work has to come from you.

Are you seeing a psychiatrist? They are the ones that know meds best. They can change or regulate what you are on for the best effect on YOU. This would be my first step towards health and independence. Good Luck! We're here for ya!