That actually sounds very cleansing. I sort of disassociated last week and he said "are you here?"...and I was half there and half not, but I was ok with it because it allowed me to FEEL things I probably wouldn't allow myself to feel had I been guarded and grounded.

I also want to thank you for saying you asked her to turn the clocks around. I have been watching the clock like crazy lately and so aware of the time, that I don't get into much because I feel like I have to get through my 'mental agenda' for the day. He is always saying "Oh god, she's looking at the clock" or "Stop it!" So, next time I am going to turn the clocks around and just let go! Thank you