(((UCLAfan)))

I am sorry to hear that your family hasn't been very supportive or caring with you. It is a tough position to be in.

I can relate, in that my family is pretty sick. They may say that they love me, but I don't feel it from them.

Staying away from your family, in this state of mind, isn't bad. It may be exactly what you need to be a happier, healthier person. Thankfully, you have found positives in life (baseball) to give you the interest in living life. Heck, baseball keeps many of us going in life! It's simple, interesting, easy to follow & enjoy, and attracts a wide variety of decent people to the games and watch on tv.

Sometimes, it's sad to see that our family isn't healthy. Sad that we can't handle being with them ~ especially when we see others get along well with their family members. That hurts! We can now put our extra time into other relationships. For instance, I volunteer to visit an elder in my town twice per week. We talk about all kinds of things, and it reminds me that there are still good people in life. And I can choose to be around those good people. I don't have to be around those that bring me down.

Allowing yourself to make that decision does provide a feeling of freedom, as well as feeling cared about. For me, it's worth it!

Best wishes to you!