Hi Puddles, that must have been an incredibly rough day. Hope today is better and you get to take a walk and breathe the fresh air.

If you need to, next time this happens you can call a suicide hotline (National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255). They are trained to deal with a variety of crisis situations. I'd be happy to read more too, if you wanna talk more about it. You're not alone here, so don't hesitate to reach out for help!