Well...I'm 15 and Ive been struggling with both depression and suicidal thoughts ,
Eventhough I havent been diagnosed yet Im pretty sure that I have some other stuff since im so messed up.
Been suffering in silence for years and told someone for the first time in november 2010 when I was having a mental breakdown and was about to kill myself.
And honestly it was the worst thing I ever did.
They made me talk to people and all that it proved was that I couldnt be helped and that nobody really cared and the person who I thought was there for me was just ignoring me and not caring the least bit now I have no one I can talk too besides PC Ive been getting worse and worse and ive been thinking about cutting for days and its really tempting
Just want this all to stop and everyone to leave me alone so im pretending im doing better and that im fine but for real im just dying inside
When someone tries to talk to me about my depression in person I just freeze up and cant talk. Every night I cant stop thinking about my death and planning my death in detail. Im also getting more paranoid by the day and lately I barely speak my mind afraid of hurting, triggering ,pissing someone off or just making them hate me forever.
I dont know why im posting this just needed to get it off my chest.
Now you can just continue you live without me and forget about me.
I'm allready lost in reality and no longer have use in the world and that is all. Be safe.