I guess it does not have to be a melt down, but that is what I want to happen. I want to fall apart, cry, and just let it all go. I did this a couple of times in therapy. It was not expressing anger, but just showing the reality of the pain I was in. It was terrible to go through, but it was a tremendous relief!!

We have talked about anger when I was having SI thoughts. She gave me a list of do's and don'ts when I got angry at home. She has talked a bit about what is not acceptable to do in therapy. Like attack her or tear up her office. Of course, I wouldn't do that!!

I am not sure I could do the empty chair thing. She has talked about that before, but I am not about to bring it to her attention! I don't think I would like that at all.

I do think that she is wanting me to express my anger to her. Since I cannot express it to people, she feels like this would be a first step for me to do in a controlled setting. I am not angry at her, so I don't know how that would work. I have a few days to work this out before my next session.