yes i am glad you got right in...many of my close friends are still using and drinking becasue they don't have the money and the wait list is sooo long..that when they decide they want to quit there is no room and when they are too far gone room opens up...it's a horrible cycle. don't look at yourself as a failure i too have gone through treatment so many times no one took me seriously that's why the last time i did it on my own. so wonderful you have tons of help and people who care for you....you are one of the lucky ones people actually care if you stay sober, and help!