I joined this forum a while ago but haven't really posted. Probably a few reasons why but tonight is different. Today has encapsulated the changes in emotions that I normally feel over weeks in just 24 hours. I have gone from fairly low, to satisfied, to frustrated, to laughing to rock bottom and unable to sleep.

I am now looking out the window with my family asleep in their bedrooms thinking how I can just get away from everything. The thing is there isn't a part of my life that I am happy with at the moment, not work, not home, not friends.

I don't want to give up and let everyone down as leaving things behind would cause huge pain and disruption and I love my kids. But I am not happy with my life and it is eating me up.