inbloom, I understand.

I don't have children but as I read your beautiful words about your daughter's relationship with your husband, I thought both 'what a gift to be able to see this relationship in action and be able to relate your own stage of development to this' and 'how hard, to see something you cannot have being played out right in front of you'. And then there's all the complexity of not wanting to begrudge her that for a second, because she's your own child and you want her to have everything... No wonder you feel jumbled- it is so complicated.

Perhaps your experience of your daughter's devastation each time your H leaves the house can help you make sense of and validate your feelings? A sort of 'No wonder I feel this bad when my session ends'. Thank you so much for sharing it- I will definitely think of your little daughter the next time I feel devastated by a goodbye with T.

With you in this pain, hope it eases a bit