Lee is right, Jarebear--you told the wrong person. And just as Lee and colmnach have said, there are many people here on PC who care about you and are willing to hear you out while treating you with care, dignity, and respect. Please take advantage of this resource and talk to the good folks here. If you feel it's your only outlet or haven at present, that's okay, because it's a useful one that's there for you 24/7. You can springboard from the site into counseling, and seeking out your school counselor, as Lee suggested, is a great place to start that process.

I have had the privilege of sharing time with you and experiencing your compassion, intelligence, aspirations, and enthusiasm, to name just a few of your admirable qualities and traits. I know you have a lot to which you are looking forward--worthwhile goals and adventures about which you talk with immense excitement. It may seem difficult to nearly impossible right now to look towards those dreams with all that's causing you pain in the here and now, but I encourage you to remember what you're set to accomplish and experience in the near and distant future. And those potential accomplishments are only the beginning...

Take care of yourself, Jarebear! My heart goes out to you. You are welcome to contact me any time you like.