I am crying with you while reading your post. Thank you for sharing your heart. Thank you very much.

What you said right here is so important. It is the truth of your pain.
You had a right to have that relationship from your father. I had the same right. But we didn't get that. And it stinks. It hurts. And it is a loss - a very BIG loss.

This is the time when you have the right to cry about your loss. You have a right to have a broken heart. No one can break a girls heart like her father can .

You are safe with your T. He does love you - very much. And in a safe way. Just the way my T loves me. There are rules of the relationship - but there were also supposed to be rules with our fathers. Our T is able to show us very real love in a healthy way.

I think that a female survivor can really gain a ton of healing from a positive male T. But it hurts like smack when we start to feel the love come up for our T and we fully realize what we lost as children.

My heart goes out to you.