My old way to SI feels like I need to change it up... But that is SOO not what I truely need, but at least with changing the method, then it's not so bad to tell the doc, he gets what he wants and I can move on, and not have him say its an ILLUSION of treatment.... I'm just sooo fed up with people just wanting information to try and help you and all they do is screw you up further. I was mixed up before, now I just want to continue, and just give him what he wants.... then I don't get a lecture, but it almost seems like I'm not changing for the best for me, I'm changing my method of SI so that I don't get a lecture about how he needs to know exactly what method I'm using, and the last professional that I told didn't understand, but he excepted what I told him, and we moved on, end of story......

But no, I feel like I need to change the method, just to not make it sound soo bad, and like I'm abusing a certain part of me. WHAT DO I DO?????????????????????????????????????????????????????