Hi Artie,
I am here and you can talk to me. I am sorry to hear you are feeling so scared, lost, lonely and hopeless. If you come back and talk, well technically, write more, I will listen, so will the others. You pain won't push us away. And even if we can't make your it disappear and be magically replaced by bright sunny feelings (wish we could), we can still tell you, we are here Artie. We hear you.

Hugs,
Sunna