I am 32 almost 33 and I wish I could get married. But, I never managed to be able to conceive of someone wanting to date me until college. I never could quite figure out why he would be interested in someone like me. Also marriages always seemed to be bad to me--my mom and step-father and mom and dad before that. It seemed like getting married meant that you had to get divorced.
Now I have seen a marriage that I like-my sister and her husband. But, I still can't see myself as lovable. If someone wants to date me, I wonder what is wrong with them.
Atleast you have had long-term boyfriends. Mine never last that long. But, I have only had three boyfriends if you count the odd one who harassed me some. Besides, I tend to date losers or dysfunctional people who are even worse than I am at relationships.
Sorry, I think I stole your topic a bit. But, I do think you are normal. I know I wish I could have a kid and sometimes it pains me to see other people with children. I mean my mom hit menapause around her mid 40s--I think. Does that mean I have a little over ten years to get married and have kids?