Wow griffin, this is a beautiful post. Thanks so much for sharing it with us. I'm so happy you had such an amazing session. Your T sounds like a true keeper. :-).

I understand your feelings of thinking you made it all up. I ask my T for validation about my abuse at every session, which is twice a week. I ask her if she believes me. I told her I hold back a lot of my abuse memories because they are so horrific and I'm scared she won't believe me. She always assures me I'm not making it up and that she definitely believes me.

You definitely are not alone with your fears. There are lots of us here that share the same fears and we understand. You are doing amazing work and I truly am so, so very proud of you, griffin. I love that you asked for what you needed. I think as survivors of abuse we learned to stuff or hide our needs in an effort to save ourselves from being punished and abused again.

Big, big hugs to you, friend: ((((((((((griffin))))))))))