Ive never had many friends. Even through high school I have spent more time alone, sitting inside my head, than even communicating with somebody. Ive always tried to do the right thing. Ive never, could never intentionally hurt somebody. Physically or mentally. I do what I can when I can to help anybody and everybody... But then, when i need help, none of my friends are there for me... It always seems they have something better to do, even if that is shopping.... Am I being selfish? Or jealous? I absolutely hate asking for help with anything, it makes me feel weak and useless, but then when I muster up enough courage to ask, I get the same result... I feel like a lost child, scared and alone. I dont know what to do, or what to say. I feel like whatever I do or say, someone is there to bring me down... I dont know...