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Where is my honor,my self respect?When did I let go of what it was to be a good woman?I suspect I lost the mindfulness honor requires when life and it's problems hit so many at once.My vigilance retreated.
I don't kid myself that I was ever perfect.I dunno what I'm saying.God my life looks so stained.I can't get the stains out.I can't keep the pieces glued.Why?
I am such a swarm of opposites.Good...bad.Honor....dishonor.Compassion....coldness.Respectable.....base.Innocent....twisted.What the hell?
I can't deal with my ....lacking of honorable character.It crushes me.I feel too broken and disorganized in my personality.
I don't know if I can keep breathing if I keep seeing it.Sorry.It is such a curl up and die day for me.Like giving up.I give up in this moment because there's nothing I can do but let the feelings pass.~W~
I honestly had no intention to break down on this post.But,what can you do?(cant repair initial typo to title...thats going to ongoingly disturb me.)

Soul asylum..."Misery" Song that's playing...Lifes irony knows no F bounds......not in my life.Everything is a fateful whisper/indicator.....really.