Our therapist for individual is also who we see together.
She usually defuses situations for us. But, sometimes I think Mare just agrees to things and says she will not act out like that ever again so I stay. I don't know.
I love her..but I hate living with her.
It is just so complicated for me.
I have told my T sometimes I feel like the only way out of the relationship is if I die...so she is never happy when I say that. Of course, I tell her that privately.
Mare is on meds now...has been for about 3 months so things have improved.
But, I have never been verbally abusive or physically abusive with her ever. I just get quiet. And then I say everything is okay because if I express hurt or anger it all starts up again.
Crazy cycle and it is draining what little life I have in me!
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