"She is here with me. I know that but I have to do this myself anyway."

Rainbow, this is one of the hardest hardest things that I have had to learn/am still learning in therapy. That my T can be there, support me, say all the right things, care, etc. - but ultimately she can't do the work for me. I have to do it. It can be a lonely realization, but it doesn't have to be.