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Originally Posted by treehouse
Sometimes it's hard to come all the way back from the drifty place. I'm so sleepy.
I am trying to be in my life. Usually I can get kind of grounded back in my life, and at the end of session, T's office looked so CLEAR and I really thought I was all the way back, but now I'm not sure. I'm trying not to be scared, and I'm trying to breathe. I don't know why I can't quite get grounded. It's hard to be here in the middle, and the more scared I feel of it, the more likely it seems that I'll drift away again  |
((((Treehouse)))). I know that drifty place very very well. I think that I usually call it my "floaty place" and I tell T that I'm floating away. It's really hard to come back sometimes. I often find it very difficult to transition back into life.....being a mom, etc.... It is so weird to switch back and forth between different ages, times, memories. So often, things feel surreal and I walk out of T's office feeling like I haven't quite come all the way back. You describe it really well, when you call it the "middle".....not quite there, not quite here, just somewhere floating, drifting....it's weird. It's hard.
Taking the dog for a walk is a great idea, although I know how awful it sounds. The urge is to curl up in a ball and hide under the covers in bed....and, of course, that's the worst thing to do in terms of getting grounded. I usually find that getting outside helps....or exercise....yesterday, I went directly to the gym after session and hated every second of it, but, it probably did help.
You are doing really hard, really good work, and I love your T. He sounds very amazing.
