It sounds like you had a really productive session! I just wanted to tell you that I understand the cutting thing, and liking it and and needing it and all of that. You are definitely not alone there.....but, I also wanted to share that it is something that can be managed, and it sounds like your T handled it really well. Keep talking, keep being honest about the reasons for it and what it offers you. Honesty is what will get you through.