Your mother is worrying about her baby. She is very concerned for you well being. I think if you sit down with her and honestly discuss how you are feeling at the moment it may go alone way in reducing some of her concerns. She is you mother and she will always worry about you. It is a great thing that she cares about you so much. She truly loves you. I am guessing ( and probably just guessing ), but I bet she would do anything in her power to take away your pain and make you feel whole again. One thing if for sure, you need to talk to someone ANYONE if your suicidal feelings get worse and become unmanageable.