Thanks guys. It really helps to know others feel the same!

So...one of these days, maybe it will sink in that 7 out of 10 things I panic about end up turning out fine, or even really good. My session today was one of those 7 times.

I left feeling...really, really good! I haven't felt this way in months! Wow. Just...WOW. The drive home, everything felt more in focus. I felt more in touch. I was actually smiling a little...still am, actually.

We managed to talk about a lot of the things that I've been worrying about, and some difficult things that have been happening lately. We talked about some things I've done this past week, reaching out to others, making connections, that I'm really proud of. I told my T how much I hate being emotional and how I'm tired of crying (even though it was only the last two sessions that I did so) and she told me that she understands, but that it's been good for me...that I seemed more alive today than she's ever seen before, that I seem more in touch with myself. I went from slightly disconnected to a little teary (but no actual tears this time) to laughing by the end. Sometimes I really hate how many emotions I can feel in just under an hour!

We talked some about my thoughts around bringing my parents to a session, trying to repair some of the damage to our relationship. She went through it with me and we both agreed that it wasn't something I could decide on today, that there are some steps I could take with them first. That there is some work I need to do first. But, that we can keep talking about it, and work towards a definite decision one way or the other.

I didn't get to share everything with her that I wanted, but I feel really good about what we did talk about. What we didn't cover this week, I think I can bring up next week (providing I don't have a crisis to talk about).