Don't they have counselors at your school??? I'd suggest you talk to one there first. I would think that ALL schools have student counselors -- they are the ones who intervene when there is trouble. Every school I've seen has had one.

I sure hope your school has a counselor. If they don't, then I guess you would have to ask your mother to PLEASE arrange for therapy for you. There is no other way around it. I would HOPE that she would understand that you're not kidding -- and you need someone to talk to. Make sure you tell her how serious this is -- and that it's not just a "teenage" thing. Tell her how desperate you feel.

Gosh, I wish there was more I could help you with. Please keep us posted, ok?? God bless. Hugs, Lee