((((((((((granite)))))))))))))
Didn't you tell T you "probably" won't be coming back? It's possible that she doesn't understand that this is a decision you've made. Maybe she thinks you were thinking about not coming back, but since she didn't hear from you again, she is still expecting you.
I don't know what your T's policy is, but my T doesn't return calls unless I specifically ask him to. I think in almost 3 1/2 years of therapy, he has MAYBE called me twice when I didn't ask. I wonder if your T has a similar policy?
I know all of this is so so so hard. Hang in there


