We do have "pet sitters" in my area unfortunately for me though Jazzy, being a doberman would not approve of a total stranger walking in our house. And they too are costly. 30 dollars a visit. And at the very least my dog would need 4 visits a day. O gosh don't make me do math. Usually they are used in instances where a person may work during the day I suppose?

She has her head in my lap right now. It makes me want to cry and I'm trying so hard not to blame myself for this. But I fear she already knows something is wrong.

The rescue idea is a good idea. I did get her from a rescue. Not an ASPCA. But I really fear sending her back there, one of the main reasons I took her from there was because she was so terrified. Later after adopting her I found out the owner has been charged with theft of dogs. Switching out microchips in dogs and giving people back the wrong dog, when the dog ran away from the owner. And that is down right frightening. Not to mention I am in a who legal process just trying to prove that Jazzy is mine, because that place never gave me anything but a receipt saying I paid for a dog. So legally she still belongs to them according to the lifetime license. So if I take her back there, who is to say they won't keep her? And resell her? Which is probably what they did with the other dogs. The only proof of ownership is on the microchip.

On the other hand I am closely familiar with other rescues in my area, but I am not so sure they would be willing to board her, since I did not get her there. Maybe reduce cost? How would I even ask for that? I have such a hard time asking for those types of things... =/