Short update. Earlier post took hours to write. Having a very hard time focusing. My psych person called back. Asked if I needed to come in right away, which was very sweet. Driving? No way. Made sure I had her cell phone #. Going in Monday. She worried that things we talked about earlier that day set it off. Don't think so, but??? I do know when it began. Later and with traumatic info unrelated to childhood stuff. Should I be trying to process? Nothing. Went to sleep several hours middle of day. Then tried reading up, trying to understand, but having zero comprehension of material that wouldn't normally be any problem. Have psych notebook handy for anything that comes through the fog. Everything is slow and unreal. No emotion. I'm not here. Or anywhere. How can I be vaguely aware of non-awareness?! How is this possible???