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Feb 25, 2011, 01:21 AM
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Member Since: Feb 2011
Location: Drowning in a river of tears
Posts: 13
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Originally Posted by ArtieGallow
The past few days, everything has been so wrong. Everything has hurt me in a way that I can't even understand or describe. I am hurting, I am broken and it seemed that no one may care.
I just wanted for all of it to go away. Just let me be happy. But, I am so upset that I don't even know HOW to be happy. I just wanted my life to be done and over.
I feel like my world is spinning faster and faster and faster and I can't get off. I can't go ask for help, I can't go and talk to people because I am scared.
I tried to take my life the other night and I don't know what else to do. I am just feeling so lonely, so alone. I have pushed everyone far away from me.
All it took was just a few pills. To end my painful life. I am just so tired, so very tired. I didn't want anyone to know the pain I am in. I didn't want them to listen, or to hear me out. I just wanted to be alone, by myself, sulking in self pity. I didn't mean to hurt anybody, I just wanted to sleep.
My family does care about me, younger sister really does care, as well as my step mom. But, I can't help that I am tired of this life. I just wanted to be happy, is all. I wasn't thinking straight, everything was getting so bad and I was getting so very tired. I am stuck in this depression. I don't want advice, I don't need a hug or comfort. I just need someone to listen. Someone who won't judge me nor tell me what to do. I just want, I just need someone listen.
I won't harm myself again as long as I don't lose it. Because I am hanging on by a thread. I just want to be loved and for someone, anyone, to just listen to me. That is all, as well as to be happy and love.
It isn't too much to ask for.... Right ?
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I think it's wonderful that you want to let it out and have someone listen. I have thought and felt like you in a way. I just can not get to the point that I want to let it out, I just hold it all in. I also recently tried to end my life and feel stuck. I would love to listen to anything you have to say. I really hope things get better for you.
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