Lots of SadRobot
"NEVER off meds experiment, regardless of what the pdoc suggests." Totally lost me there (it is probably perfectly clear, but right now I'm very spaced and having trouble comprehending things at all, but still trying like hell). Are you off your meds right now?

(No worries on the perception of it being "ranting". Sometimes things overtake us so much... it's not self-involved, at least not in a negative way, so don't beat yourself up over it.)