Thanks Liiam. Mornings seem to be the worse. Feelings are real intense in the morning. I feel really alone in the morning & I just want to run to my T & hold her - be with her - look at her - and feel safe. All that while my wife is asleep upstairs. Crazy. Confusing. Powerful. Shameful. Then the day starts and I have to put that aside & "be a grown-up." You'd think at my age I would be past the "school boy crush" stage but -- not! I believe you guys when you say this is "normal" (a term T discourages) and that it'll get better, but... What do I do with these feelings in the meantime?? It's getting more and more difficult every day to carry this. Anybody?