After being in therapy for 2010 and being a member since 2010, reading you alls posts....

sometimes I wonder if the approaches and methods of therapy are really that EFFECTIVE. POSITIVELY EFFECTIVE THAT IS?

Many of us struggle with the same issues,
fear before therapy,
anxiety about it,
the therapeutic-relationship itself, in its entirety,
the fact that we pay them
attachment
the list could go on and on
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everyone repeats many of the same issues here
...sometimes I wonder if whoever created the concepts behind therapy,
I wonder if they did it right?
Coming here, I read a lot of struggle....
which it would make sense if only one or two people struggled with the same things but, ITs MANY people, not just one or two.

Secondly, Its almost as if you need not only a therapist but, a therapist for THERAPY lol... someone, like a coach in a sense, who could clarify why certain things happen in therapy, answer the questions you have, kinda coach you through it... or maybe a live, in person support group for therapy? I just think therapy really is hard work, not just for your issues but, therapy itself...i think it would be cool if they added some type of coach to therapy, who understood the rules and standards of therapy and could kinda coach you in between sessions but, they would charge a lot less then the therapist and be optional. I just think therapy requires more then just sessions if your going to do it, especially if it is your first time, i think therapists should recommend a support group or coach if your in therapy because, when your going through things in the first place, therapy tends to become its own problem as well!!

what do u think?

idk, my crazy thoughts??? lol

anywho, i want to break down crying, apparently, i try to make myself tough and idk if this is right or wrong but, i'm trying to have space btwn me and my therapist cuz i hate being ATTACHED and I have succeeded because of it, i feel i need her less.....a lot less!
but, some times I just wonder if I am doing what is right because, I purposely REJECT my need to see her, i make myself wait longer even when I know I NEED to see her. ughh...i spent one day, 30 min just crying in bed cuz i wanted to go to therapy,...i'm not really attached to my therapist i dont think, i'm attached to what therapy is...that safe place, being able to talk about what i'm going through....
ughh it feels like waiting for this weekend and MONDAY therapy session will take forever...i want to cry... A LOT