Yea...tons of shame here. Like sailboat, I have this major food phobia, and I also have been know to give into bouts of SI - though I have gotten much better with the latter. My dad was a well known politician, and I spent my whole childhood/young adulthood doing everything to keep his reputation in tact...even though he was a raging abusive alcoholic. I think that's where a lot of my shame comes from...trying to keep secrets knowing that the world would reject me if they saw the "real me".