Well, it's been a while since I've posted anything, and I'm just feeling so frustrated. For those who don't know me, I'll give you a brief background. I am extreemly jealous. I have been with my boyfriend for two years and I'm getting worse. We can't even watch TV without me flipping out over a cover girl ad. I am obsessed with thoughts that he wants me to look like anyone other than me. My shrink says I have delusional disorder. I have been heavily medicated and it seems to help a bit, but the side effects are awful. I just want to be normal. I am with a great guy, who I know would never cheat on me, but I am consumed by thoughts of if I just looked better he won't leave me. I know he is going to leave me if I don't change, because I am slowly ruining our relationship. When we watch TV or god forbid go out in public it's the same thing, "I guess you wish I looked like that don't you". I know I'm an attractive person, I don't think I'm ugly, I just don't think I'm ever going to be good enough to keep him. (or anyone else for that matter) Every where I look I see magazines and Tv and girls in the mall etc, why would he not want something better. It may sound trivial, but it is all I think about and it is ruining my life. If I can't get over this I will be alone the rest of my life. Which most of the time, I think is the best thing anyway, that way I don't have to worry anymore about being left for someone better.