My mother has emotional abused me and my brother when we were children, she abuse me to the point that I was almost a lifeless human, but their were moments in life things were normal, but let me get to the point.

I set a this email saying: "Dear Mom

I'm sorry for everything.

I don't know if you can ever forgive me but I just want to get this off my chest, I feel homesick ever day, at times I just wished everything was back the way it was, I feel depressed all the time, I worried about school, home, and everything.
I feel overwhelmed almost all the time, I barley have anyone to talk to, when ever I talk to dad about it, I know he means well but he doesn't seem to understand why I feel this way, my life isn't bad but I feel overwhelmed all the time, I don't even have a family anymore all I have is dad, and Ethan right now.

I never see you and the fact you probably hate me at this point , and Danielle is shutting me out, treating me like I'm not even her little brother anymore.
Every time I think about this, I can't help but cry myself to sleep.

I hate myself for everything, I cause nothing but tension, Danielle already hates me but I'm not mad at her, if someone said the same things I said to you, I would react the same.
I feel as if I have no one beside me, I cry almost everyday knowing how badly I **** up my life, I failed in school since 1st grade, that is not something to be proud of, when people treat me like I'm Autistic, it just makes it worse.

I feel as though I'm losing myself, I want my Mother in my life and a Grandmother for my kids".



two days later she replied: "Marcus,

Yes of course I will and have forgiven you. I wish that things had not changed so much that you did not want to come and live with me. Danielle does not hate you, she just did not have the space or money to have you live there. I know that she did not want you sleeping out in the hallway rather than come into her place. She did not mind that at all. I want you to be happy and stop worrying about everything. I love you. Danielle loves you. We talk about you all the time and are wondering what is going on in your head and why do you think we hate you. You are my son. Danielle's sister and that will not change ever.

As far as you and I not seeing each other- well I have asked you and you showed no interest, so I did not ask again. I love you and miss you Marcus".

but what she has done to me and brother right now, I just don't know what to do.