If you are in school could you see about the mental health services on your campus? I understand what you are going through, I also have PTSD and it is a real struggle sometimes and it can be frustrating when people around us can't understand. Talking helps a lot, and I hope you continue to share and talk here in your journey to healing. Feel free to pm me anytime, I can be a bit slow to respond at times due to my crazy scheudle but I always respond. Best wishes to you peanutbutterisdandy.