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Originally Posted by sittingatwatersedge
every step takes its own time; and it's a big job as you know MUE.
I think you are doing so great. 
(and if it were me, I never would reveal that to the group unless I had first had an intense talk (or several, or many) with my own T about the idea of doing so. In future life you probably will be private about that, you're right.) hugs to you |
Thanks, SAWE....
I soooo appreciate your support.
I've told T on several occasions how I didn't think our group was the "right" group of people. He said that he wouldn't know what the "right" group would look like. After several talks with T about in a while ago, it was about me working towards getting my needs met - to create a safe enough environment for me by doing so - in order to set the stage for sharing...This, in itself, is a worthy experience - so IRL, I can do that very thing.
And ultimately, we have no control over how people react...and I just have to be prepared and ok with whatever the outcome is....THAT is a learning experience....to be ok with being vulnerable and not internalizing what comes back.
I guess, at this point, I'm just not ready to be "ok"....not with "crickets" anyway. But, honestly, I don't know what I'd expect people to say or how to react. I guess I just don't want to feel the shame and embarrassment that goes along with it....or to be so overly emotional about it and feel out of control. It's all part of it.
In time.....
Thanks again....