Thank you all so much--
I went to see my T today and she told me i should quit - she never actually tells me what to do so this is a pretty big deal - she's known me for probably 9 years and said she's never seen me like this about anything ever.

I need to speak with my husband about finances when he gets home later but I usually find a job within a few weeks - I have enough $$ that i'd be ok for a few months if i didn't get unemployment but i'm going to talk to the agency about making it so i'm laid off and that i'd get it.

i've never quit a job before without having something else, and i've never had zero income coming in pretty much since high school and i'm 41 now - i've only been married a short time, and so I've still got a very single mentality of taking care of myself and not relying on anyone else for anything.

I'm waiting for my agency to call me back.
I'll let you all know. Sometimes i just need to hear from others that it's ok....