Well, gosh ~ you shouldn't have to be taking all the blame for this!!! It takes both of you to work on this marriage -- there is really NO blame. You both have problems and you're both working on yourselves!! I'd say that's great!

I'm sure that you get upset sometimes at her, but you know that it's her disease talking and not HER. I wish she could understand that of you. I think that she's going to be upset when she realizes what she's doing. I really dooubt that she WANTS to divorce you. After living with you for 32 years, I'm sure she has come to depend on you and love you. She just doesn't know how to cope with her disease -- OR yours. It's a shame that her therapist hasn't taught her more coping skills. Perhaps she hasn't even discussed her marriage with him. If not, then that's even MORE of a shame.

I hope that you'll talk with your therapist about this. All is not lost. I don't think that YOU want a divorce do you?? I'm sure you're getting tired of being thrown out all the time -- but maybe your therapist can think of something to help you. Please talk with him. God bless and PLEASE keep me posted?? You can message me -- I really care. Hugs, Lee