I think you need to try that matt Sun. I have the odd back strain but nothing like you describe. I can appreciate that the strain of coping will trigger some depression. I hope you get some relieve soon. Have you ever tried yoga? I wonder if it would help at all. I have been thinking, just thinking lol about pulling out a yoga CD. Seems a good complement and prelude for meditation.

The walk didn't go so well. While sitting here I feel fine but as soon as I get up and started to get ready the hyperventilating and physical weakness set in. I barely made a block before I had to turn around. I was so weak that I was tipping from side to side with each step I took. My body just felt like a ton. I staggered down the road as though I were drunk. The exhaustion weakens my defenses and trigger a crying spell. The whole way I was trying to breath but I couldn't get it to slow down. Interestingly I would yawn every once in a while and that was the only time I felt some relief.

I am back sitting again and everything has settled down. No more yawning either. I am back to thinking it is my thyroid and if it is then it will pass within the week. If it doesn't I will go back to the doctor.

While sitting here in my office I am enjoying the view of the mountain outside my window against the bright blue sky. Second best to walking in it I guess. I need to get up again to make my son some lunch since I didn't make it before my walk because I didn't want to miss the sunshine.

I think some meditative walking and keeping my movements slow might help me get it done without another tipping over episode.

Sorry for going on so much about this but I sure appreciate being able to share.