I still have no answers. I have called/emailed around and got very little answers or leads as to what to do. It's depressing. And things are not getting better on my end.

I am headed into one lonely weekend. My therapist is being a jerk again. He refuses to help me resolve this. Refuses to even make it okay that I would ever give her up either. Tells me "you can't give her up, she's been through too much". And so here I am stuck. It's hopeless. I just want to die. But I want to save myself. And I don't know what to do. He refused to talk over a plan for the weekend for me. I am holding on by the very last thread and he knows this. And he's just sitting back and watching me.