Ditto - I've found that writing what I need to disclose is easier. For the really hard stuff, I've written it in my journal, then brought my journal with me to session. My T will not take my journal and read it...she asks me to read aloud what I've written. Sometimes, I just sit and stare at the pages, trying to find the courage to read it. Sometimes, I start to read then tell her I'm not ready to share it yet and ask if we can come back to it later. Sometimes, I read some of what I've written, but not all. Then, sometimes, I just tell myself "just do it! You know you want to" and I just start reading.

After the first disclosure, when my T didn't react in any negative way, I felt just a little bit more safe, and a little more trust. Each time I reveal something and she doesn't react negatively, it helps just a little bit more. It's still hard, every time, though. After a disclosure, I often ask my T what she's thinking...I need to know because she doesn't really reveal any emotions on her face. She usually tells me that she's sad for me or that she hurts for me, and that's what I need to hear.