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Feb 25, 2011, 06:14 PM
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Member Since: Oct 2010
Location: Michigan
Posts: 6,543
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Dearest KrazyPhoenix ~ I've read your post three times, and you indeed touched my heart. You spoke very CLOSE to my heart, as I experienced very similar circumstances. 
I too stayed in the "dark" for quite some time ~ but I decided that "he" wasn't going to have that POWER over me anymore!!  By staying in the dark, I was letting "him" win!!!  I didn't WANT him to win anymore. I was tired of his continual power over me. I had to take my power BACK.
So that's what I did. I made a decision to not stay in the dark anymore. And by DECIDING that I wasn't going to stay in the dark, it seemed that my mood came with me! I found it a bit strange that I began to feel better ~ I got outside more, even if it was just to go to the mailbox. Baby-steps are progress too -- you don't have to take giant steps.  In talking with my therapist, he said that just by making the DECISION to stay out of the dark was good. 
I kept making progress but I denied thoughts of "him." Whenever that came into mind, I immediately began doing something to take my mind off of it. It became habit - until finally one day I noticed I hadn't thought about it at all!
All I'm saying is I got out of that black abyss. That's not to say that I don't trip once in awhile - but I don't stay there for more than a few minutes anymore. I REFUSE to. I took my POWER away from him. He can't hurt me anymore. God bless you. Hugs, Lee
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