Yup. Lots of shame around my own SI and ED. For me, anytime anyone found out about my SI, I was made to feel like I was a freak, like there was something seriously wrong with me. I was belittled, yelled at, told that I just had to stop doing it. Yeah...really not that easy to just stop. I learned to be ashamed and embarassed by what I was doing from the reactions of others. With the ED...no one ever knew. I've only revealed that in person to two people - my T and one friend. I could feel my face flushing with embarassment as I told them. I knew the ED was "not normal" and it was my secret. I believed that I couldn't let anyone know about it...if they did, I just knew I'd get the same reaction as I got about the SI. I don't do well with attention being focused on me, and anyone who learned about my SI or ED instantly focused more attention on me...which just made the SI and ED worse, which made the focus stronger...well, it became a viscious circle.