I have lost my dear father also. One thing that helped was a friend who told me to think of the ways he lives on in me, and the ways that I can honor him and be connected with him by thinking of those things, and celebrating him. And I find that this has really helped. He does live on in me, and I find that I honor that and celebrate him by remembering those things, and by doing things that have made him happy.

I hope that doesn't sound like garbage. It is a Buddhist practice called: Touching the Earth, and it really helped. It made me understand that we are still together, he is still part of me. No, I have never let my father go.