It's not a game- it's your life! When I have been feeling this way it is usually either a) the therapy is not working out or b) my life in general is not working out and I want a little corner to push all that pain on to. Could that be the same thing for you?

Maybe focus on building up a connection with the t.. ? 3 visits feels too short to really be burned out. It just sounds like things are so hard for you right now with the hospital and all.. plus I almost forgot, lol, the med sickness-- that would shake my confidence in doctors for sure!