Hello

I'm a single mother in need of some advice on how to handle the current situation with my son. My son is an adult, 24 years of age. He has no motivation whatsoever (Only for exercising), No social skills, No social life or friends, no job, nothing at all going on for him. He stays awake all night waiting for me to wake up for work. He accompanies me to the car and goes back inside. He waits by the telephone for me to call him and let him know I made it to work safely. He then Goes to bed until I come back home around Noon. When I arrive home, he wakes up, greets me asks me how my day was and heads to the back yard for his vigorous exercise routines. He then showers, eats, lays down and watches T.V and repeats the process all over again. On weekends, I take him out to dinner and sometimes to the mall but he's usually reluctant to go anywhere, and if he does accompany me, we usually head home shortly due to him not tolerating strange people at all. He rarely speaks, only to greet me and thats about it. He's like a mindless zombie at times.

He's been following this routine religiously since he was 18 years of age. I honestly don't know how he can do it, and its driving me insane. His life is just passing him by and he doesn't realize it. I've confonted him on various occasions and he has no problem opening up when this happens. I asked him what he wants from life and he said "Nothing at all, I'm just living on borrowed time". I asked him if he's ever planning on finding a job, woman, and his own way and he told me that he's not interested in any of that. When he was about 20 I made him get a job and told him he needed to move when he had enough money saved. He somehow managed to get a job at a Subway restaurant and that was a nightmare. On his first week he got into a verbal altercation with a customer and threw a sandwhich at the customers face. He told me his reason for doing so was because the customer was treating him badly and that he wasnt going to tolerate that behavior. I explained to him that he could've handled it other ways and he said thats the only way he can express himself, physically. He then started packing his clothe into a backpack and left. I couldn't find him till the next evening. He was under a bridge staring into the city traffic. I cried and picked him up. When he got into the car he said "Sorry Im such a dissapointment mom, I'm trying to do the best I can here" with a blank emotionless face.

Another thing I haven't mentioned, At age 17 he was diagnosed with "Major recurrent depression", "obsessive compulsive disorder" , "Social anxiety disorder" and "severe insomnia" brought on by the other symptoms. He took medications and went to therapy but he dropped out of the therapy and stopped taking his meds. He has then refused to go see a doctor, claiming that they are all crazy and can't help him. He said that he was "Down in a hole too deep to be rescued". "The wheel of fortune just doesn't spin my way". When I analyze these things he's told me, I start having dark thoughts in the back of my mind. I think he's trying to tell me something in riddles. Another thing that concerns me are his agressive exercise routines. He works out vigrously and is in extreme physical condition and has astonishing strength. He blasts his radio with satanic metallic music and exercises for a minimum of 3-4 hours. I asked him why he exercises so much and he said he "needed to be ready". I asked him ready for what. He replied "ready for when the **** hits the fan". He's obssessed with eating healthy and hates drugs. I just don't understand him at all, he's like a walking paradox. I honestly don't know if he's mentally unstable, if it's my fault, or what the problem is. He seems so disciplined but at the same time is not. He never complains, he never intentinally hurts my feelings, he's extremely respectful towards me and others, has no vice, is a good person, is humble, worries alot, is sensitive but there seems to be a monster hiding behind all that. HELP!

Sorry if it all seems too long or incoherent, I am desperate here.