thanks.

yea. i need to talk to my landlord about the pet policy, and put my security deposit down. hopfully it isn't some ungodly amount of money to have a cat again. i had an awesome black one growing up, that's now in the care of my parents, because he's so old. i could use some kitty love right about now...

i ended up coming home from work with my dinner, i ate, and spend the last 3 or 4 hours crying almost nonstop. and now i am at my sister's because i couldn't stand the solitude. i cant stand my self alone. i can barely stand my self in company of family. i'm a complete wreck of a person. broken in every way.

all i want to do is curl up in my bed, and waste away like everyone wants me to, so i can be out of their hair, and forgotten. no one wold miss me.