thanks. i've gotten a tib better being with my sister. she always seems to know how to bring some of the best of me out. but i still feel so damegd inside, and this temporary calmness will quickly shatter the second i return home to my bed where i am free to cry my eyes to pain.

maybe i'll stop and buy some alcohol on the way home... i know i shouldn't be turning to the bottle to help with the depression. but it's ever so tempting...